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because i love you so.
it's me.



♥FINA.
finally fifteen!
crescent-love.
25 march.
12.34pm.
sister.
soulmate.
confidant.
squadmate.
friend.
food junky.
mean.
lame.
funny.
sarcastic.
nice at times.
generally fun.
oh so rocking.

her loves.

her super clique.
her super squad.
her family.
the world dominaters-geeone.
herself.
cee-threee!
rainy days.
smiling.
long bus rides.
her life & the people who make it seem worth living.

feel the beat.


Saturday, November 29, 2008

ohkay!
went to bukit timah nature reserve yesterdayy.
me, my sis and my uncle.
whee.
i am very proud of myself.
cuz was suffering from after rc camp.
but i still went.
okay.
yeahs.
we took this path called the rocky path.
which also means simply we have to walk of ROCKS.
climb, to be more exact.
i was stuck halfway.
sadly cuz, i have short legs.
and i couldn't reach the rock.
my mean old sis was laughing at me.
hmphhh.
then my uncle came and rescued me.
hahas.
but yeah.
oh i saw many many squirrels.
and a super duper huge ant.
it's like half the size of my pinky.
and that is huge, for an ant.
oh i saw a worm too.
it was slithering.
and there were many many ants on it.
okay do i sound overly exagerated?
but its the truth okayy.
and the trees there are super tall.
and they have huge trunks.
so my "genius" sister concluded that humans should start feeding on SOIL.
so that we will grow as tall as them trees.
i concluded that we will die of food poisoning.
hahas.
we took pics.
candid ones.
i look well, unprepared.
but oh wells.
they're quite funny.



ohkayy,
erm yeah that's me and my sis.
and lots of plants around us.
duh, its a nature reserve.


candid!!!
hahas.
no idea wat i'm doing.
i think i saw some bug or smtg.


okay.
this is funny.
u know the moss-green thingys.
those are the rocks.
i think i'm stuck there.
cuz yeah.


erm,
yeah.
thats me again.


erm.
okayy.
i think i was going to hop or smtg.


another candid shot.
wat's up with my hand ah?
oh well.


this was outside a cave.
we saw a spider and a green lizard here.
hahas.


you can imagine how sticky and sweaty we were.
hahas.


this was damn cool okay.


tada.
once more.
i was always the last.
which is sadly why i'm in most of the pics.
but oh well.
slow and steady wins the race right?


MR.MOSSY ROCK took the pic for us.
i'm not joking.
seriously.


and we reached the top!!
hahas.

btw.
my feet aches now.
and bloody bob hasn't bursted yet.
bob's my blister.
pfft.
but oh well.

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8:10 PM


Thursday, November 27, 2008


just realised i'm slow.
but its better late then never.
so here goes.

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tag back.

1. i don't eat fish.
2. i have a phobia of insects.
3. i am ALWAYS grouchy and cranky in the morning.
4. i talk to myself.
5. i like singing.
6. i can laugh for no reason.
7. i bite my nails.
8. i like leading.
9. i don't like blood, dunno why i'm in rc.
10. i don't know why i'm doing this quiz.

The person who tagged you is?
AMANDA WHEE.

2. Your relationship with him/her?
FRIEND, SQUADMATE♥

3. Your 5 impressions of her.
Ehh.
cute, too happy, smiles 24/7, very fun to be with, love her.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
crying with me before punishment, lots of things actually.
she can make me laugh despite how negative the situation is.

5. The most memorable thing they had said to u?
SMILE. hahas.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
hmm, put on weight!!

7. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
laugh.
seriously.
it's impossible to be AMANDA'S enemy.
hahas

8. What is it you want to tell her now?
camp is over, my blister is bigger.
u rock.

9. Your overall impression of her is?
very smiley. love her.

10. How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?
i'm bossy, irritating, mean and rocking.

11. The characters/ characteristics! you love of yourself are?
hmm, i think very highly of myself.
hahas.

12. On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
i'm too bossy, very rude at times.

13. The most ideal person you want to be is?
myself♥

14. For people that care and like you, say something to them.
thanks for everything. love you.

1. akka
2. keng leng
3. joan
4. amanda
5. alyssa
6. salwa
7. kimberly
8. zufar
9. wanjing
10. darsh

15. Who is no. 6 having relationship with? (salwa)
alyssa.
hahahs.
kidding babe.

16. Is no. 9 a male or female? (wanjing)
Female

17. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (kimberly and darsh)
erm they have absolutely no idea about each other.
but if they got together it would be damn farny.

18. What is no. 2 studying about? (Keng Leng)
one plus one.
hahahahahs.

19. When was the last time you talked to no. 3? (joan)
yesterday.
when she told me her grandma walks faster than me.

20. What kind of music band does no. 8 like? (zufar)
i have no idea.

21. Does no. 1 have any siblings? (akka)
that would be me and my bro.

22. Will you woo no. 3? (joan)
fat hope.

23. How about 7? (kimberly)
hahahahas.
NO.

24. Is no. 4 single? (amanda)
hmm.
think so.

25. What is the surname of no. 5? (alyssa)
alahakone.
i spelt it wrongly once.
hahahs.

26. What is a hobby of no. 10? (darsh)
hmm, talking to me. she rocks at baking.

27. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? (alyssa and wanjing)
okay-okay.

28. Where is no. 2 studying at? (keng leng)
crescent.

29. Talk about something for no. 1 (akka)
erm, i'm coming for hiking.
i'm hungry...

30. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8? (zufar)
NO.

31. Where does no. 9 live? (wanjing)
bukit merah.

32. What colour does no. 4 like? (amanda)
okayy, lemme guess.
PINK.

33. Are no. 1 and 5 best friends? (akka and alyssa)
nope. they dunno each other.

34. Does no. 1 have any pets? (akka)
err, the fish?

35. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? (kimberly)
hmm, i'm the sexiest.
hahahas.

36. What is no. 10 doing now? (darsh)
getting bdae pressie for her mom.

For the quizzy, i tag:
very lazy.
shall copy paste.
crap.
no tag back...

1. akka
2. keng leng
3. joan
4. giokting
5. alyssa
6. salwa
7. kimberly
8. zufar
9. wanjing
10. chikhay

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5:02 AM


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

okay.
just came back from rc camp.
came back yesterday actually.
but was too tired.
i slept at like 8.
but yeah.
okay i'll start with my group.
we were initially supposed to have like 5 ppl.
me, AMIRAH, LIM HUAN, HUI TING, SI YING and EILEEN.
but in the end only me and SI YING could make it.
we were called PEACE.
hahas.
yeah.

day 1.
can't really rmb.
but erm..
i think we had uniform inspection.
which i bet i failed miserably.
cuz, i had absolutely no freakin idea how to iron my uniform.
and the damn dustcover was too small.
but yeah.
then there was PT.
quite okay.
very tiring.
oh and i got kidnapped.
so sad lar.
and my "buddy" which was an egg, broke.
then the food was a big problem for me.
cuz i am a very slow eater.
and i cannot force food one.
yeah.
but i tried my best...
AMANDA MA'AM was really nice...
i think that our sec 1 squad was quite slack the first day.

Day 2.
we were supposed to go on a hike.
so we were given lots to eat.
but i couldn't eat at all.
then the hike began...
we combined with SAINT GABRIEL'S.
and i find them very...
kay nvm.
shan't be mean.
but yeah.
so i was supposed to carry the flag.
and i swear, it gets really heavy after a while.
we were supposed to walk all the way from school to ORCHARD.
its damn far okay.
and i could just feel a blister...
then half way through,
my left shoulder started aching.
but i decided to endure.
then we reached after like what an hour plus.
we were supposed to go to mac house.
gahh.
and that was just the beginning.
we walked and walked and walked.
then halfway through,
the st gabs ppl got "kidnapped"
and me and SI YING had to duck walk.
IN THE MIDDLE OF ORCHARD ROAD.
i swear it was super embarrasing.
there was like tourists staring at us and stuff.
yeah kay shall forward abit.
too erm lunch?
yeah.
it was at fort canning.
and the food was "unfinishable" for me but i tried.
then we were almost done at this place.
forgot the name.
but my shoulder was really painful.
the left esp.
cuz of the flag and the bag.
then i like rubbed it for awhile and then we continued.
but yeah.
then when i reach,
after awhile we had foot drill.
and the foot drill changed alot of things.
okay we were too soft.
and we had to knock it down.
which means go to the push up position and stay there.
and then my shoulder started aching like hell.
but i really wanted to endure cuz everyone was doing it.
then halfway through i really couldn't and i fell flat,
my face almost hit the floor.
yeah.
then one by one we couldn't endure anymore.
and AMANDA had wobbly feet.
but yeah.
i think the foot drill kinda made us more bonded.
then,
i can't rmb.
was it the fire drill?
ya my feet burnt.
hahas cuz the ground was super hot and i was barefooted.
and KENG LENG.
you ah!
no idea how to phrase things rite?
make me vibrate in laughter.
hahas.
but that night i saw my blister.
then i was like barefooted on one leg.
cuz i didnt wanna burst it.
oh i named my blister btw.
BOB the BLOB.
hahas
but yeah.
then we went to bed.

Day 3.
we started off with pt.
which i really cldn't do.
cuz my blister was like really painful.
but yeah,
i'm sorry guys.
then err,'can't rmb.
shall skip to...games.
oh yeah.quite fun.
i was limping but yeah.
then wat ah?
okay dunno...
shall move to the climax.
PUNISHMENT.
okay.
its like this,
for every wrong thing we do we accumulate punishment.
and we had to do 355 PUMPINGS!!!
and even that wasn't the prob.
its like this,
we stay in a circle,
then one person starts.
and does as much as possible then next person take over.
and while one person doing,
the rest stay in push up position...
and i swear its damn painful.
and halfway throught i thought my blister bursted.
so i had to stop and lift up my feet.
so that pei ling ma'am could pour medicine.
but i was super guilty cuz like not fair.
so i got up as soon as she was done.
and i did 35 pumpings even though each person only supposed to do 20.
and AMANDA damn power kay.
she did like wat,
40 plus.
but after that all of us broke down.
actually we broke down even before starting cuz we were like super scared.
then we had like "prize giving"
and AZIRAH won best camper.
but i think she deserved it cuz she endured the most.
then we were dismissed.
saw ALY and JOAN.
i cldn't even walk cuz my feet was numb and when i walked it was all wobbly.
then AMANDA'S kind dad drove me home.
went home and had a super long shower.
to get rid of all the ointment and sticky-ness.
i slept super early too.
was like too tired.
and i missed my bed and blankie.
but oh well.
i think the 8 of us are like more bonded after camp.
we are more louder too.
okayy.
that would be camp basically.
but yeah.

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10:59 PM


Thursday, November 20, 2008

pfft.
boredom.
went shopping yesterday.
yay.
went to robinsons.
then bugis.
awesome-ness yo.
i swear you can find the cheapest stuff there.
saw tees with the catch phrases.
like, " smile, if i'm beautiful "
you peeps must be smilin rite now.
YOU BETTER BE.
hahas.
just kiddin.
but yeah.
oh and saw pretty earrings.
bought a few...
sab, u did really well.
and i'm so very proud of you.
can't believe you guys are leaving tmrw.
gonna miss you.
don't come back with accent okayy.
hahas.
ohs watched "kismat konnection" last nite.
shahid so cute.
ahhh [ drool, KIDDIN. ]
hahas.
but oh wells.
still haven't watched DOSTANA.
mooboos.
but oh well.
rc camp on mon.
gahh,
really anxious.
ughh.
kay better go do hmk.
ciao.

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11:36 PM


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

okay.
i'm officially dying to watch DOSTANA.
aaahhhh.
the songs are rocking.
hahas,
ohs and i saw madagascar that day.
wasn't that bad.
damn farny.
hahas.
ohs met darsh yesterday.
we watched 'thoda pyaar thoda magic' and 'saawariya'
TPTM was way better.
well, for me.
saawariya was, well, idk...
but the movie was like taken in the darkness kinda thing.
hahas.
but quite okay lar.
oh and i also watched 'jaane tu ya jaane na'
hahas,
loved it.
i think imran is damn cute.
hahas.
and the story is quite okay.
okay so wat can we conclude from all this?
fina has got nth better to do and has been watching movies all week.
hahas.
i havent done any hmk.
but oh well.
okay desi girl is stuck in my head.
its a rockin song.
okay nvms.
oh went to naj's house that day.
had fun.
gonna miss em' went they go to austrailia.
boo and hoo.
but oh well.
let's hope its for the best.
oh and i visited my baby brother that day!!
aahhh, sooo cute.
he has such a small nose.
hahas.
don't ask.
just realised,
i have been procastinating the whole week.
must study.
gahh.
oh AMANDA thinks she's becoming SHORT TONGUED!!
hahahahahahs.
i feel so mean.
but get well soon kay.
and u better come for camp.
dont last minute back out hor.
then me and KENG LENG have to suffer all alone.
okay.
still cant wait for DOSTANA.

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8:07 PM


Friday, November 14, 2008

WHEE.
okay i'm high.
but i've got every reason to be.
cuz we were rockin yesterday.
okay...
so our motion was " This house believes that doctors should be given the right to end the lives of their terminally ill patients "
and we were opposition.
i was damn nervous cuz ALY and JOAN were at netball.
and every one else was in their groups practicing.
then finally the arrived all sticky and sweaty.
but at least they were here.
then the other debate went on first.
SU was absolutely great.
and SHA gave a tough fight.
HWEEPENG was very cute.
but yes she was good too,
and well SALWA's points were good too.
but the opposition gave a tough fight.
esp SHA.
then SU's group won.
but it was a tough one lar.
cuz both sides had good points and all.
then we were supposed to go nxt.
but we had abt 10 mins to prac.
and i was bloody nervous cuz my whole thing was like 3 mins and i had to talk for 6...
when we began the prop had lots of gd points.
but we REBUTTED.
well ALY was rawkin.
her timing was gd and stuff.
then when i went.
i rebutted and stuff.
but there was just one problem,
THE DAMN BELL DIDN'T RING.
i had 4 main points.
i was alr finishin my third,
the oh so lovely JOAN and ALY were like "omg, she's almost done"
and i went like real slowww.
then finally the 5min bell went.
then i moved on and finished at 5mins 30secs.
then we prepared the rebuttal for joan.
but JOAN didnt bring one of the papers with most of the rebuttals.
and the stuff she had could only be talked abt for like a min or so.
but i must say,
that girl can talk.
she dragged her points for almost 4 mins.
whoohoo.
hahas.
well though we won i have to admit the prop was equally good.
and i think what mattered more was that each of us gave our 100%
so i guess all of us were winners.
really enjoyed the three days.
so thanks to everyone who made those days possible
and sowie if i had said anything wrong...

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9:37 PM


Thursday, November 13, 2008

hello.
okay.

the debate thingy is awesome.
its super FUN.
hahahas.
the house believes that doctors should have the right to end the lives if terminally ill patients,
who cares abt the house?
i aint part of it.
hahahas.
had loadsa fun lately.
oh ordered PIZZAS that day...
haha, me and DARSH were anticipating the moment when it finally arrived...
ohkay, next saturday,
3 words,
CRAP, OH CRAP.
okay thats 2 words actually considering crap is repetitive.
okay does that really matter?
kinda confused lately...
about lots of things.
people around me are just,well, i dont know.
i think i'm beginning to see other sides of them.
either good or bad.
pfft.
have been very lazy these few days.
kind of like idk, a hamster.
i can pretty much stay in bed 24/7.
speaking of HAMSTERS.
akka, just so you know.
you cheated my feelings,
i actually got up to see those hamsters.
gah, my sad sad life.
currently addicted to tinka tinka.
its beautiful, really.

Every little element appears to radiate
Every heart has a desire
Oh, for someone who'd realise
An unknown intoxication grips my heart
A fading dream lights up again
This feeling, this consolation ..
Is this love?
Question my skipping heartbeats
Every little element
Appears to radiate
Every heart has a desire
Oh, for someone who'd realise


[ translation of tinka tinka, karam 2005]

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3:01 AM


Monday, November 3, 2008


okay.

the class party was rockin.
hahas.
well,
okay lemme start from the start.
went to west coast with SU, SALWA, DARSHINI, LINA, JIA YI, SHI YA & BRIDGET.
yupp.
we took a bus.
and we were the first ones to arrive.
apart from JOAN & KIM.
went with KIM to look for a place.
met me fellow YUHUALITES!!
haha.
in the end we decided to go back to the same old place.
had tons of food.
and played crappy games.
then MDM KALA ordered PIZZAS!!
yeah.
me and LINA had the most embarrassin experience.
hahas.
well oh well.
then played HUSBAND & WIFE.
NO! its a running around game for goodness sake.
hahas.
and i got SABOTAGED!!
can u believe it.
pfft.
hahas.
then packed up.
went to MAC;
CAMWHOREDD.
pics in my friendster.
and yeah.
that was pretty much it.
hahas.

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4:39 AM